Im tired of never seeing A's on my report or being left out side the front door. Im tired of never going to sleep at night and thinking that imma turn into a superstar. Tired of having irregular heart palpitations and putting CD's on from Eminem staring at my chair, and not having money to lease a house, having so friends with me when im ducked up. Life is crazy but i don't get pissed just dissed and missed, got no air anywhere, tired of little kids pushing me with words, tired of seeing the principle asking me why i did it. Tired of being too tired to get out of bed and being everything that i am with no one knowing what i am, getting pushed by bullies. On and off like a light switch i am and missing you with me, and mum telling me she ain't proud and disappointed. And being helpless because i don't have a phone. But even if i had all of that i wouldn't change and letting the bottle win and having to cop the stuff you leave me with. Sick of being stared and and wearing the say clothes for 17 days. Tired of being mentally abused and teachers telling me that i'm behind and off in another way. Cant go 24 hours without a cigarette so i get up and bounce round the classroom. Almost got suspended yesterday and this is who D'Arcy is. No one hopefully. Not to your popular kids who sit in groups and other ones who look for exception. Im an addict to pain so this is the last letter and not like the movies so let me know when you've forgotten about "i'm dead".
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