Hey.
I would write this on my profile page but I don’t think I’d have enough space so I’m gonna basically give an update on my channel here.
I started YouTube over a year now and have managed to gain a good following of 12k+ subscribers through this community. I have always enjoyed interacting, playing, and making content on this server. There’s been ups and downs with YouTube whether it be inspiration or views, but I’ve always had this urge to keep going and trying my best.
Everything was going relatively fine for my channel up until 2 months ago. I had to stop making videos and take a short brake to focus hard on school. I didn’t think much of it - but apparently it was too long. Since I came back from that short hiatus, every video I upload has done horrible. No matter how much time or effort I would put into it - it tends to do relatively worse than usual. One specific video I uploaded took over 5 straight hours of streaming, recording, editing, and posting - only to be one of my lowest viewed videos in a really long time (both view count wise and view duration-wise). I didn’t think too much of it and decided to keep going. I made a few more videos since then - all with the exact same outcome. It really kinda hurts to put so much effort into something you really love only to be shown that others aren’t very interested in your work.
I made a big mistake too - I made a video talking about summer plans and got the channel, where I promised an upload and stream schedule along with consistency. Due to unforeseen circumstances, I ended up getting a job irl. Some of my time is spent doing that this summer, and that doesn’t make it a proper excuse to get away from making videos though. It’s only part-time, but for the rest of the day I have to spend making videos or streams - I won’t. Mostly due to the lack of motivation. I’m ashamed of making those promises that I will not be able to fulfil.
Speaking of lack of motivation, I want to talk about something that’s been bothering me for an extremely long time but have not addressed it in fear of being viewed as envious. There are many other YouTubers I watch who do the exact same kind of content as me. I don’t know if I’m doing something wrong, but I feel like my channel is not growing as much as I’d like it too - even during my best months on YouTube. Other smaller creators who do the exact same kind of content as me manage to get exponentially more subscibers than me in a much faster time. Their growth is incredible - and please don’t get me wrong, I am very happy for them - but I just don’t understand why that amount of growth cannot happen to me. I spent over a year on this channel and haven’t had incredible growth like that. It really doesn’t help my motivation, because I am genuinely lost and don’t know what to do.
Before I end this massive weird thread off by saying sorry, I want to say thanks for everyone who has stuck with my channel even through its down times, it means a lot and I’m happy you enjoy my content.
Finally, I am really sorry. Sorry for getting your hopes up for regular uploads this summer, sorry for this break I had to take, and sorry for making you read this massive thread lol.
I hope one day I can find some motivation again - and I’ll be sure to find some soon.
I would write this on my profile page but I don’t think I’d have enough space so I’m gonna basically give an update on my channel here.
I started YouTube over a year now and have managed to gain a good following of 12k+ subscribers through this community. I have always enjoyed interacting, playing, and making content on this server. There’s been ups and downs with YouTube whether it be inspiration or views, but I’ve always had this urge to keep going and trying my best.
Everything was going relatively fine for my channel up until 2 months ago. I had to stop making videos and take a short brake to focus hard on school. I didn’t think much of it - but apparently it was too long. Since I came back from that short hiatus, every video I upload has done horrible. No matter how much time or effort I would put into it - it tends to do relatively worse than usual. One specific video I uploaded took over 5 straight hours of streaming, recording, editing, and posting - only to be one of my lowest viewed videos in a really long time (both view count wise and view duration-wise). I didn’t think too much of it and decided to keep going. I made a few more videos since then - all with the exact same outcome. It really kinda hurts to put so much effort into something you really love only to be shown that others aren’t very interested in your work.
I made a big mistake too - I made a video talking about summer plans and got the channel, where I promised an upload and stream schedule along with consistency. Due to unforeseen circumstances, I ended up getting a job irl. Some of my time is spent doing that this summer, and that doesn’t make it a proper excuse to get away from making videos though. It’s only part-time, but for the rest of the day I have to spend making videos or streams - I won’t. Mostly due to the lack of motivation. I’m ashamed of making those promises that I will not be able to fulfil.
Speaking of lack of motivation, I want to talk about something that’s been bothering me for an extremely long time but have not addressed it in fear of being viewed as envious. There are many other YouTubers I watch who do the exact same kind of content as me. I don’t know if I’m doing something wrong, but I feel like my channel is not growing as much as I’d like it too - even during my best months on YouTube. Other smaller creators who do the exact same kind of content as me manage to get exponentially more subscibers than me in a much faster time. Their growth is incredible - and please don’t get me wrong, I am very happy for them - but I just don’t understand why that amount of growth cannot happen to me. I spent over a year on this channel and haven’t had incredible growth like that. It really doesn’t help my motivation, because I am genuinely lost and don’t know what to do.
Before I end this massive weird thread off by saying sorry, I want to say thanks for everyone who has stuck with my channel even through its down times, it means a lot and I’m happy you enjoy my content.
Finally, I am really sorry. Sorry for getting your hopes up for regular uploads this summer, sorry for this break I had to take, and sorry for making you read this massive thread lol.
I hope one day I can find some motivation again - and I’ll be sure to find some soon.