Salty_Shadows
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It was also this time when i was Diagnosed with severe depression and Severe social anxiety ( I knew I had social anxiety but it wasn't diagnosed for a while)
advised) Does mention about Sewer slides and Sell arms*
Well ive sat on this post since it came out as i didn't want to reveal much about my personal life as i hate people having sympathy for me xD but seeing as more people dont know much about me i feel like its about time i talk about all my stories in Life :)
If you want to talk about anything i say feel free to Start a conversation with me or Dm me on discord SALTY_Shadows#6969
Growing up i didn't have an easy life with being adopted at the age of 5 It lead to me losing all my friends at an early age and left me feeling like an outsider when i moved to a new school and for all of primary i was bullied for being the "outsider" and the fact i had a different accent to everyone else
I then moved to secondary school and all was fine for the first two Years but then In year 9 my life turned for the worst
In January 2018 My mum Passed away after having a seizure and it messed me up and it still affects me to this day
Growing up i didn't have an easy life with being adopted at the age of 5 It lead to me losing all my friends at an early age and left me feeling like an outsider when i moved to a new school and for all of primary i was bullied for being the "outsider" and the fact i had a different accent to everyone else
I then moved to secondary school and all was fine for the first two Years but then In year 9 my life turned for the worst
In January 2018 My mum Passed away after having a seizure and it messed me up and it still affects me to this day
It was also this time when i was Diagnosed with severe depression and Severe social anxiety ( I knew I had social anxiety but it wasn't diagnosed for a while)
I then got really depressed when my older brother walked out on me and my dad and ive never since him since that day and i dont even know if he's still around which still haunts me to this day not knowing where he has gone
I then Lost my good friend to suicide months later and it lead to me sell arming and having really dark thoughts about ending it all as i was just Failing all my subjects and i was kept being told that i am a massive failure
In early 2019 That i was first diagnosed with Anorexia and a Month later i was Hospitalised because of it and it wasn't a fun experience (8 months later i would be hospitalised again because of Anorexia)
Then in 2020, When covid Hit, i became really isolated as most of my irl friends I had Decided to leave me by myself so this didn't not help with my Sewer slide thoughts and One thing lead to another and I did an attempt. I was then put on sewer slide watch for about 2 weeks and referred to a counsellor and a therapist who both quit after a month of Dealing with me which didn't help me at all.
During 2020 i met some wonderful people on CC who have helped me out a lot and i want to thank all of them
I would tag you all but there's just too many of you xD
Although ,during 2021 my mental health was up and down all the time With some days feeling great and some days i felt like absolute crap. I also started to get harassed by members of the cubecraft community over stupid decisions on my part and it lead to me needing to take a break or i probably wouldn't be here today
I then Lost my good friend to suicide months later and it lead to me sell arming and having really dark thoughts about ending it all as i was just Failing all my subjects and i was kept being told that i am a massive failure
In early 2019 That i was first diagnosed with Anorexia and a Month later i was Hospitalised because of it and it wasn't a fun experience (8 months later i would be hospitalised again because of Anorexia)
Then in 2020, When covid Hit, i became really isolated as most of my irl friends I had Decided to leave me by myself so this didn't not help with my Sewer slide thoughts and One thing lead to another and I did an attempt. I was then put on sewer slide watch for about 2 weeks and referred to a counsellor and a therapist who both quit after a month of Dealing with me which didn't help me at all.
During 2020 i met some wonderful people on CC who have helped me out a lot and i want to thank all of them
I would tag you all but there's just too many of you xDAlthough ,during 2021 my mental health was up and down all the time With some days feeling great and some days i felt like absolute crap. I also started to get harassed by members of the cubecraft community over stupid decisions on my part and it lead to me needing to take a break or i probably wouldn't be here today
At the start of 2022 i came out of a 11 month long relationship at the worst time possible which had a massive affect on my mental health which is one of the reasons i went on my break as i didn't have any motivation to Live let alone play cubecraft
I do still suffer From Anorexia But its not as bad as it was Back then and i am back in Therapy to Hopefully cure my depression and anxiety.
If you ever experience something similar to what i have Please Get help there are people out there who will help you 
and if you ever want someone to talk you about similar issues my dms are always open and i will listen and give advice the best i can :D
(There are some details still left out here Theyre just too much for this thread :) if you really want to know more feel free to get in contact with me)
and if you ever want someone to talk you about similar issues my dms are always open and i will listen and give advice the best i can :D(There are some details still left out here Theyre just too much for this thread :) if you really want to know more feel free to get in contact with me)
